I am aware that my blog is being read by a wide variety of people. A much wider variety than I ever imagined when I first started keeping an on-line journal. To my surprise - and slight dismay - I find that links to these pages exist on several other blogs. As my circle of online friends increases, I expect the number of links to grow, along with my readership. I am aware that despite the fact that I am not publicly searchable on Google and have not added labels to most of my posts, I still have hits from all over the world.
Social networking is truly an amazing thing.
I used to post content freely, and now find myself second-guessing quite a lot of things. Especially anything to do with Christianity or scripture references. I don't want to turn off people who might be otherwise enjoying the blog, or who might have helpful comments to post. On the other hand, my faith is such an intrinsic part of who I am and why I write that I feel it would be disingenuous not to post my thoughts here. My real reason for starting the blog was to have a place to write, and possibly share, these very insights.
You see, I can't journal in a notebook. I've tried, over and over. I repeatedly hear "Authors must journal!" But I can't write without an audience. I already know what I want to say, so why record it for myself? Especially since most of the things I journal about tend to be tedious and often depressing.
But when I have an audience, I become sharper. More interesting. If you think this blog is boring, you should see some of my diaries! I'm not saying I would show them to you (I've destroyed most of them anyway) but you should see them. Pretty dull stuff, let me tell you.
I hope that by posting my personal insights here, I may not only unburden my heart, but inspire a few people with the same struggles. I also hope that perhaps these thoughts will help someone who doesn't like or understand Christianity, to see it in a slightly different light.
In short, I have found that there is no substitute for the deep, abiding faith that gives purpose and hope to all that I do and all that I am. I hope you don't mind my sharing it.